that was one shitty vacation.
it would have been a lot better if it wasn't for my trip to the E.R. and coming home to only 3 out of my 4 cats.
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i don't wanna talk about it.

For some reason, Dani and I are making "The Top 10 Things That Influenced My Life" lists.  Let me warn you now - this is gonna be really stupid.  But here it goes:

10. The books I've read by Laurie Halse Anderson, because they really changed the way I look at the world - and improved my writing.

9. My countless diaries and journals over the years.

8. My Friends DVDs.  They help me escape reality.

7. Christmastime.  The pine tree smell, advent calenders, watching the rain, the thrill of Santa coming, coziness, the frost on the lawn, cheery decorations, wish lists, etc.

6. My pets over the years.

5. Music, particuarly by Green Day.  Not only because it entertains me, but because it makes me feel something.

4. My friend Julia's death, because I think that was the thing that sparked my passion for writing.

3. Mckenna.  We've known each other for almost 8 years, and during that time so much has happened.  I really don't know what I would have done without her in the particuarly difficult times of my life, and hopefully she can say the same about me.

2. All of my other closest friends: Dani, Rie, Taylor, Brittany, Amy, Kelsy (not in any real order by the way). 

1. And of course my family (especially parents), mostly because of their love and support.

i just got back from a Centrifuge (the camp i went to) reunion thing, which was a sleepover with most of the people from camp (and a couple people who didn't go to camp). anyways, it was fun.  i forgot to bring my digital camera, so there aren't any pics, but oh well.  all ten of us (exactly ten, dani!) played hide-and-go-seek and had a scavenger hunt outside in the dark.  and we played little sally walker and big "bible" with a strobe light in the backround.  it was kinda-almost as fun as camp.
eeeeeeeeeuuuuuurrrrgggggggggghhhhh. this entry is so pointless.  soo...i'm gonna talk about something a little less pointless now.
at night (or in the morning - whenever i'm sleepy) my mind is at its weirdest, and i have all these worries and regrets and overly imaginative thoughts.  and the past few nights (& mornings) i've been regretting something that happened. once again, i can't say exactly what these things are on this xanga - for obvious reasons.  but anyways, when i've snapped out of it, i always think to myself, "why would i regret that?!?" 
if you even bothered to read this far, and if you even bothered to read my other entries at all, you're probably tired of this undescriptive code talk.  never mind, you probably don't care at all.  whatever.  i'm tired.  *yaawwwwwn*  i barely got any sleep.  uh oh, here come the regrets again....